Today is April Fools’ Day. Do you remember talking about this last year? You were telling me to brace myself for the pranks you’re going to pull on me next year, and I was secretly hoping there would be no school that day in case you do something silly to me in school. A year ago today, we were talking on Instagram, and you had asked me when I would be free for a date. Our first date then happened on the 10th of April. We went on an evening walk and talked for about two and a half hours. I had never walked or talked so much with someone I just met less than a month ago. I guess even then I felt comfortable with you. At the end of the night, you walked me to the bus stop, and we parted ways. I texted you to thank you for the nice evening and you said we should do this again sometime. We didn’t know it then, but a few months later we would be spending the whole day together after school and walking your dogs in the early evenings.
Thinking back to those moments, oh, how I miss walking with you. I miss our dumb and smart conversations. We could talk about anything and everything. I miss debating with you. Do you remember how long we debated about whether water is wet? Or whether a hotdog is a sandwich? I don’t think I ever told you this, but my favorite thing about debating with you is the way we conclude things. We’d eventually run out of points to support our individual arguments and agree to disagree.
I miss all the small moments with you too. Even the smallest moments feel big now when I look back on them. Eating at the dinner table, watching you get a drink in the kitchen, walking around your house. I find myself trying my hardest to remember what you look like doing the simplest things. The things I didn’t get to record because they were small moments back then. I’d trade anything in the world for just one more small moment with you.
I love you more, always, and forever. Can’t wait to eventually see you again.
Love always,
Sha
I Swear You Will Be Fine 
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