I Swear You Will Be Fine

Between the few of us, we always had little thoughts that we weren’t quite ready to share at first. Like the one i had when you said how your uncle loved Super Mario and how can he be so excited for an adult and i was equally guilty (lols) so i didn’t say much back then.

Sha was sharing how you guys were just getting to know each other and i was that “girl who sat with you in lecture” – a rando that neither looked friendly nor particularly warm. she was also terrified of me, while i was secretly excited that this cute girl was gonna sit with us. i wonder what little thoughts were going through your mind when you asked her to come join us, and did you also think that i was being quietly excited for something beautiful blossoming in front of me?

i wonder what your little thoughts were when you left kim’s class – visibly upset. i was thinking if i shld go after you, but sha was there too so i msged her to go after you while i stayed behind. would it have been made better if we both went after you? would you be able to share more of your little thoughts with me if i had followed?

when i first met your mom, it broke my heart when she recognised me by my name – you shared so much of our little thoughts to her without me knowing. even though we were more and more open with our little thoughts throughout the months we got to talk more, there were still so many little thoughts im learning from your loved ones about something we might have said or done, or you had said about our friendship. little unspoken thoughts that i wish we could’ve shared more of.

nowadays, whenever im in a class full of quiet people, i miss all your yapping. i know you thought i minded, and would always check in, but i really dont. i hope that you’ll continue to share these (both of yall) with me in futures ahead.

“lynnda”