I Swear You Will Be Fine

Dear Josh,

Jess told me about this new show recently. I was addicted from the moment I started it. I didn’t realise that the finale was not out until I finished the 8th episode and wondered, “huh, that was a strange ending. They didn’t even cover the plane crash”. I then googled and realised there was one more episode! “Oh Mum,” you must be laughing at me.

There were many things I liked about this show. Some bits stood out especially. 

When Carolyn nervously meets Ethel Kennedy for the first time, she says to her, “I’m sorry you’ve had so much loss”. Ethel’s reply to this was, “I’m blessed to have so much to lose”.

I thought this was very beautiful. Like the old saying, “Tis better to have loved and lost. Than never to have loved at all.” But it’s also a lot more than that. We were so blessed to have you. We were blessed to have you to lose. I’ve written this down on my phone and will keep reminding myself of this like a mantra.

But the highlight of the whole show to me, was the final episode. “A” warned me about the episode, saying it was so, so sad. My reply to her was, “well, how bad can it be? We know the ending anyway”. Boy was I wrong. It was a complete tear-jerker. I don’t regret watching it though. The episode at the midway point starts to focus on the family’s grief. And this was done most beautifully. The courage and grace shown by the Kennedys and the Bessettes, was more than inspiring.

The most beautiful part was the last 2 minutes. When Ann – Carolyn and Lauren’s mother delivers the eulogy. I watched it over and over again, despite the tears that kept falling. 

This is actually the trailer to the last episode. But the audio completely covers the poems so beautifully articulated in the eulogy.

I hear you saying this to us Josh. All night I kept playing the words in my mind. 

Do not stand at my grave and weep……..

I am not there. I did not die……..

We hear you Josh. This is what you would be saying to us too. Grace and courage…for you too.

Love Mum