I Swear You Will Be Fine

Dear Josh,

There are two things I wanted to write about today. The first is that I am thoroughly convinced that you are helping me in many ways. I’ve started believing this long before today and I wrote about your help a few posts ago too. I’ve never been a lucky person. I still don’t think I’m very lucky. I just found a strand of hair in my pasta at the restaurant I had dinner at today. I mean, I’ve met you and I’ve also met so many other kind people, so maybe I am a little lucky. It might be weird to say this, but I feel like I’ve had more things go my way since 2025 than any other year I’ve had. And I think it’s because of you.

The constant lucky thing that goes my way is grades. Sure, I’ve learnt the study method that works for me. Sure, I did all the work on my own. But I’m convinced you make it easier. I’m convinced you somehow whisper the answers to me during exams. I’m convinced you put resources in my path for me to find them. I am also pretty convinced that you ensure all presentations I do go smoothly, and they have. I made it to the Dean’s List and Honor’s year, and I’m convinced that you helped me get there.

The other thing I’m fairly certain you helped me with was driving. I don’t think it was all me when I passed my driving test on the first go. In fact, I don’t think it was all me even when I did the theory tests too. I didn’t work as hard as I should have on them, and miraculously made it out. Also, my practical test was on the 22^nd at 2pm (222), so I was already half certain you’d be helping me out then.

There were so many other things that went my way, and I can’t help but wonder if they would have gone awry if you were on Earth. Not that nothing went my way when you were on Earth, but maybe I wouldn’t have had a guardian angel helping me out. Would I have fumbled during presentations and embarrassed myself? Would I have maybe done poorly on some exams or assignments? Would I have taken more than one try to pass my driving test? Even if it would have been like that – even if I were to keep finding strands of hair in my food, fumbling in class presentations, failing tests and exams – I would have preferred to do it with you here. I would rather be the unluckiest person in the world – falling down wherever I go and spilling drinks on my white clothes – if it meant I could come home and laugh about it with you. Granted, I would not be laughing all the time – stains on white clothes sound awful – but you would have found a way to cheer me up. We would have found a way to manage all the lemons life would have thrown at us, because that’s just us. That’s what we did, until we couldn’t. I might be luckier now because of you, but I’d rather be awfully unlucky.

This is the second thing I wanted to tell you about. My friend, W, texted me a few days ago to invite me for her baby’s 100^th day celebration. To jog your memory, she’s the same friend who had a gender reveal last year! Her baby is really cute. I’ve been seeing her stories on social media and was honestly really thankful that W thought of inviting me. She was so sweet too – reassuring me that I didn’t have to come and telling me not to bring gifts. Of course, I instantly agreed, and of course, I instantly went online to search for gifts. How could I not! I’m pretty sure W doesn’t read this blog, so I’m going to tell you the gifts I bought for her little one.

I decided to share a gift with another friend of ours – we’ll be gifting her a baby pillow and pillowcase set. I personally have this pillow and several pillowcases and it’s very comfortable. Perfect for little ones (and adults). Though I technically am covered for gifts, I didn’t feel like stopping there. At first, I wanted to get her a personalized Jellycat bunny. It’s super cute! You can customize the bunny’s ears to have the baby’s name and a specific pattern. I was almost about to buy it when I thought of books. I know, I know. The kid will think of me as “Boring Auntie Sha”, but it wouldn’t have been a gift from me if there weren’t any books. And besides, I thought the Jellycat bunny might be something her parents would want to buy her. It’s the type of plushie that follows a child for years and possibly decades, and I didn’t want to accidentally take that honor away from her parents. Anyway, I decided on two books.

The first book is “Oh, The Places You’ll Go!” by Dr Seuss. Fun fact time! When I was a teacher, my school had this rule where we could only name our classes after children’s authors (which I LOVED) and at one point my class was named “Seuss”. There were also “Dahl” and “Evans” (I had three classes over the course of two and a half years). Anyway, I thought this book was quite meaningful. It’s meant to inspire children and motivate them to navigate the ups and downs of life. One of my favorite parts reads, “You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose.”

The second book is one I adore as well. It was a concept I tried to teach my children at school. The book is titled, “The World May Say This, But I Believe That” by Kelly Tay. I think you can guess what the book is like. The book is meant to foster self-worth and validate children’s feelings. There are lines like, “The world may say, ‘Don’t be shy!’ But I believe you’re taking your time to observe. You’ll know when you feel ready to join in.” and “The world may say, ‘Shh, stop talking’ But I believe your voice is important.”

Truth be told, as you probably would have guessed, these were books that were on my list for our future kids. We won’t be able to buy or read these books to our future children, but at least others can. I think you would like these books. These were actually all the gifts I planned to buy, but I might take a look around and see if I find anything else that’s fitting. I might get something for W too. People often overlook mums.

I can’t wait to see you again. I love you more, always, and forever.

Love always,
Sha