I Swear You Will Be Fine

i’ve been having a lot of different running thoughts in my head lately and contemplating on my next post to you. i reckon you would have a couple of things to say and there was a “shower thought” i shared with sha about wwjs, and i think you’d approve. i’m also having some troubles putting my thoughts into something coherent, but it’s been a while so i’ll try.

there’s been a common theme amongst the unhappiness i see in other people around me lately. while it may seem like the random arguments or misaligned expectations, i realised it’s mostly about what’s left unsaid. and i find myself upset at people, especially couples, who has the opportunity to live a happy, fulfilled life together (or maybe apart), risk throwing it away because they are more concerned about what’s left unsaid. they try to fill in the blanks about what’s left unsaid, and arrive at their own assumptions – usually the worst. i cant blame them since it’s human nature to be more pessimistic, but focusing only on what’s left unsaid simply wastes precious time that can be better used to love each other or at least themselves. i lose patience easily these days, also because every day is a reminder of how easy it is for life to change utterly and completely.

i think often about the moments that i should have asked or said more. i regret them, and will for a long time more. i know it might not have made too much of a difference after all, but i still wish that i did. regardless, our friendship is still one of the most authentic, honest and safest spaces i’ve had the privilege to be part of. and it remains so – whether on text, through your other half, or in my mind, i hope this stays for a long time. with you, what’s left unsaid is not the worst, but an acceptance of me as a friend, your acceptance spoke volumes.

“Lynnda”