Dear Josh,
I will not be giving you enough credit if I don’t write about the signs you’ve sent me lately. As you must have known, last week was not great. Actually, I think this week was not that good too, but that’s more of a personal problem than one related to your passing. Last week, I was feeling extra sad for no apparent reason other than the obvious. What I mean is, there was no noticeable trigger that would have made me extra sad.
I still text you at least twice a day on Telegram, our usual messaging platform, and I’m pretty sure I ended last week’s stream of texts with a request for more signs because I’ve been feeling down. As always, you delivered. It’s quite amazing how you never fail to impress, even now!
The biggest one was probably the lights in my room. A few weeks or so ago, one of the lights in my closet started flashing. I very excitedly sent your mum a video of it because in my 11 years of living in this house, that had never happened before. I was convinced the flashing light was a sign from you. It’s still flashing by the way! Earlier this week, one of the lights in my room started flashing out of the blue. It started off by flickering, and when I looked up from the book I was reading, it started properly flashing. Like the last time, I quickly took a video of it to send it to your mum. It’s still flashing now, but I don’t turn it on as much because I’m afraid it’ll stop flashing – not that that would mean anything. I got the sign already.
Another sign I’ve been repeatedly noticing is your name. “Joshua” has been popping up everywhere! In the Instagram reels I watch, in books… even in the movies or TV shows I watch with my dad! Even he has pointed out the number of “Joshuas”. It’s really nice to hear your name, so keep it up! Always makes me smile, like we have an inside joke, when “Joshua” appears. Plus, this makes my dad and I say your name a lot more. Was that your intention all along?
I’ve also noticed more number signs this week. Just today I got 6 variations of angel numbers. Although it has been a while since we started receiving signs, seeing them still helps a lot.
Oh, don’t let me forget the text messages on your phone! If I recall right, there’s been two from me – my phone number and email – this week. Those really help too because I can’t explain them at all. You can say everything else is a coincidence if you’re a cynic, but this I can’t explain away.
I guess this post is really just a big thank you for all the signs you’ve given us. They all help a lot, and I’m feeling better this week. Oh, also, thank you for helping me win Mahjong! That was fun. Felt like we were playing together.
Can’t wait to see you again. I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, and I’ll miss you more than you can imagine.
Love always,
Sha
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