I Swear You Will Be Fine

hi, it’s me again.

two posts in a week? overachieving a little, i know. and i debated if i should write this down, and i think these words need to reach all the mothers who love.

mother’s day was never a big deal in my household because we weren’t really taught to be super emotionally expressive. i think the handmade cards lasted through primary school, and then life got busier and there just wasn’t enough time or space to do so. but as i’m older now, i am able to appreciate more what a mother’s unconditional love is.

it’s mixed with warmth, care, joy, pains, anxiety, tears, hope and so much more.

i see this daily with the mothers in your family. I see their happiness shadowed by grief, but still warm and kind. especially to those around you.

i’ve never wanted kids. because i saw how my mother sacrificed for the sake of her children. she didn’t have a choice, but she chose to love us unconditionally.

i used to refer to you and sha as my babies from school. and at some point, seeing how you both are, made me waver for a milisecond in my conviction and actually thought about having kids. Because i thought how lovely it must be to have children this lovingly brought up, and who are such beautiful and kind souls. you must have a wonderful mother. back then, i did not have an inkling about just how much love was poured into you from the moment you were born. I think i understand better now just how unconditional a mother/grandmother’s love truly is.

p.s. i didn’t say happy mother’s day to auntie and ammama cos i was worried i might be upsetting :<

happy mother’s day to all mothers and every hour, minute and second too.