I Swear You Will Be Fine

Dear Josh,

Jess is doing a 12 hour shift so I’m posting today.

Your signs are getting even better. I didn’t think it was even possible.

So yesterday, I read from Shalini’s post that and her family watched a show on Friday night, and that one of the characters was Cha or “Sha”. As I was reading the post, I thought to myself, how nice it would be if the show had a character called Josh. And you did even better than that. “Cha” boyfriend was Josh!!!

The other surprising thing was that at the exact same time, Ammamma and I were watching a Tamil move. Aunty K and family kindly invited us. I was hesitant at first, but then did a little research and thought we would like it. It was the very first time Ammamma and I were watching a Tamil movie in the cinemas after you passed. The main actor showed up within just a few minutes of the movie starting. And what was his name? You guessed it. “Sanjay”!!! Which is actually not the most common name in Tamil movies. This made us so happy.

I guess you know we are all needing you more this week. I see there were multiple messages to all of us this week. Jess has been very hard at work and stressed with a few little things. Shalini had some major things due. I on the other hand, am drowning with work. There are so many issues I just don’t know how to resolve, and have no one to bounce off ideas with. You would have patiently listened to me ranting, probably lying diagonal on my bed, and on your tummy. I keep trying to figure out what you would have said to me. I realise today you would have asked me to look at other options. You’re probably right. But let’s see.

Please be with us as we start another potentially difficult week.

Love Mum