I Swear You Will Be Fine

hi josh,

recently there were more than a few occasions i missed having your “not-so-pc” reactions to the jokes i wanted to make, or getting your view on hod, the hiccup about grad and everything else that’s making us want to cuss.

yesterday sha mentioned again (i knew this already) how initially you thought i was critical of you using cuss words in front of me, and even specifically told sha not to do it too. did i come across as such a prude…. ohmy. but in any case, that impression clearly didnt stick, and i hope you know that i was never trying to be critical and it was a very circumstantial reference kind of comment about not doing it at work. but it’s been truly trying and i found out from your mom shes also been super stressed out and busy at work. however, im gonna stick to that comment i made to you before about not cussing at work no matter how bad people are trying me (us , incl auntie).

i cant recall if i said this on the blog before, but i remember saying this to other friends. the first time i met your family was at your wake…my heart sank (further than possible) when i said my name to your mom, and immediately she went oh! youre lynn, josh told me so much about you. maybe not sank, but if it was even possible, my heart broke into another million pieces. i wish i was clingier to you both so you’d never have doubted the friendship and admiration i have for you too. i think sha and i talked about why yall didnt want to bother me too much cos you had an impression i might not wanna stick around after grad (adulting and all). guess yall stuck with me anyways. see you.

“lynnda”